I'm Uncomfortable in Church
Now before you go thinking I’m about to announce some church scandal, let me quickly break it down as to why I’m not sitting comfy and why it’s a good thing.
It’s a good thing to be uncomfortable because it shows the true word of God is being preached! When you're uncomfortable it causes a shift, a movement towards change. Change for the better that is.
Christ encourages us to come as we are but that doesn’t mean we stay as we are. Change must happen and is inevitable if you are willing to submit to His Lordship and humble yourself.
When you surrender to God you'll start to notice your filthy self regardless if you arrived at church rocking Céline and blood red soles by Christian Louboutin feeling oh-so-fresh. God see’s through all the make-up we cake on, diamonds or cubic zirconia’s we're dripping in and the 100lb bundles of weave. He sees hearts in need of surgery.
Church is for the broken. It is spiritual A&E, the place of intensive care and literal life support for those that believe and trust in Him and thankfully doesn’t get switched off because the blood of Jesus is your insurance plan. If you are in a place where the word from the altar has convinced and convicted you, then don't go the route of trying to do it yourself- rather, go to the altar and get purified from lies, hypocrisy, addictions, homosexuality, stealing, and the like. Remember, cast your burdens on Him, because He cares for you.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new
I’m thankful for my church Salvation Sanctuary because we are blessed to have a ministerial team who rightly divide the word of truth. It’s not every day preach about prosperity and blessings when people are dying in sin. Don’t get me wrong Christians aren’t meant to be busted down and broke but what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and lose his soul?
I remember a time where I would be in church yet my mind would be in the gutter somewhere thinking about things I shouldn’t be, or my eyes knee deep in my WhatsApp messages arranging plans for when church would finally be over. It would even go as far as blatantly falling asleep or leaving mid-service. I would care about worldly matters and trust in my own strength or material wealth over God…. when one day during praise and worship, I had my eyes closed hands in the air and on my wrist an expensive watch. Suddenly I felt a warm presence behind me and a voice say, ‘Don’t come and worship me with that watch on your wrist’ I thought I was hearing things, so I continued to worship. At this stage, God began to prove that He is indeed a consuming fire and a jealous God because the watch started to BURN my wrist! So much so I didn’t even try to open the clasp I just ripped it off to stop the burning. It’s safe to say that that was the end of my relationship with Cartier because God had shown me very clearly how I trusted or even worshipped material things more than Him. Awkward!
For the Lord your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God
- Deuteronomy 4:24
If you happen to be in a church and you feel comfy every single service and sin is never addressed something is up! How can God’s love, mercy, and grace be preached without mentioning his justice, righteousness, and holiness? How can we mention heaven but not hell; relationship but not repentance; a Saviour but not sin? We can’t.
Thankfully, to date by His grace alone, my mind has been renewed. I’m not filling up my social calendar during service, nor wanting to rush out the building, if anything I want the sermon to go on lol. I’m still uncomfortable in my church and I hope and pray I remain that way because the only thing that should be comfy is the clothes I wear so I can praise and worship unrestrained lol
Dress(worn as coat): H&M
Glow: Jesus Himself lol
All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness
-2 Timothy 3:16